My heart aches..
I cannot come out of what happened in last one week.. I have been walking around with a heavy heart and a lifeless smile... I do not know whether this is depression.. I would like to see a psychiatrist but not sure what I will tell to him. I am always crying. I feel the world underneath me has drifted apart.. I am desperately looking for a hold... I am choking...
I am confused. Cannot take right decision. Am I being cheated? or it is me just overreacting? Am I not someone who will love to live with? My self esteem is no where to be seen...
I had a scary dream last night.. Someone stabbed me on my chest right in the center. I was bleeding heavily but in conscious.. My mom was trying to take the knife from my chest which pained crucially... I do not know what I was doing in my sleep, when I felt my husband woke me to check what is wrong with me...
Day before I had a dream in which two crocodiles were awaiting for me in waters when I was crossing over the wooden bridge over the stream... I was not scared of those crocodiles but I was crying...
I guess, these are just the manipulations of my unsecured feelings.
I just want a better life.. Possible? What should I do for it?
Lord, please give back all the happiness you have taken away from me. Or give me enough courage to face things...
I cannot come out of what happened in last one week.. I have been walking around with a heavy heart and a lifeless smile... I do not know whether this is depression.. I would like to see a psychiatrist but not sure what I will tell to him. I am always crying. I feel the world underneath me has drifted apart.. I am desperately looking for a hold... I am choking...
I am confused. Cannot take right decision. Am I being cheated? or it is me just overreacting? Am I not someone who will love to live with? My self esteem is no where to be seen...
I had a scary dream last night.. Someone stabbed me on my chest right in the center. I was bleeding heavily but in conscious.. My mom was trying to take the knife from my chest which pained crucially... I do not know what I was doing in my sleep, when I felt my husband woke me to check what is wrong with me...
Day before I had a dream in which two crocodiles were awaiting for me in waters when I was crossing over the wooden bridge over the stream... I was not scared of those crocodiles but I was crying...
I guess, these are just the manipulations of my unsecured feelings.
I just want a better life.. Possible? What should I do for it?
Lord, please give back all the happiness you have taken away from me. Or give me enough courage to face things...
